My Relationship To My Chosen Lifestyle
Disclaimer - not everything I speak about is for everybody.
Anytime we choose to make a positive shift in our life, no matter how small we believe it to be, it is a good thing. Something so small as getting to bed an hour earlier or a larger undertaking like shifting our eating habits, will all have a ripple effect of good. Not only for ourselves but for those around us.
I have been on a journey of transformation most of my life. This has not always been a mindful action. When I was younger, it was just “the way I was.” Now that I am older, I can see their was divine order in the middle of it. Today, it is intentional.
I came from a home where we tried to make the best choices for the best outcome before anything bad would happen. In other words, getting out ahead of the issue. These were skills I was taught from an early age.
I eat very clean, 90% plant based, no alcohol and work out about 5 days a week. Two of the three seem to be “normal” for a large portion of the population in todays world. However, the not drinking alcohol part, doesn’t seem to be considered normal. I am often asked, “why don’t you drink” “Did you have a drinking problem?” My response is, “No I never had a drinking problem, this is a conscious choice.” I choose to operate optimally in my life. I want to fully be present with people and I want to feel emotions in my life and in every situation. Numbing something just never made sense to me.
When my oldest daughter was just a baby some friends offered to babysit for us so my husband and I could go out on a date. We went to dinner and out for a few drinks. Because it had been so long since had a drink of any kind…, BAM, the alcohol hit me like a ton of bricks. We went home and I crashed in bed around 2:30 am. A few hours later I was woke up with a familiar cry and flashing lights on the baby monitor. Mekenna was hungry….NOW! There was no time to gather my thoughts, eat breakfast or take a break because I was clearly hung over. I just had to take care of her and that was that. After feeding, she took a nice nap and so did I. I woke up a couple hours later to the realization that this was not worth it. I would never drink again. I was not on top of my game. I was crabby and cranky with my sweet little baby and she had done nothing. Life is meant to be lived, present and engaged. I clearly wasn’t. It really made an impact on me. The day “after” a night out drinking is a complete loss. You can’t get it back. That is where my thoughts went.
Fast forward about 18 1/2 years and I still haven’t drank and do not miss it at all. My friends and husband love it because I am always the designated driver. See there is even a silver lining for those around me!